Back at it

Well I am happy to say that the weight that I put on is now off.

I know the number is not that important, it is on how you look and feel. But to be honest I was afraid to gain the weight back. But then something happened that helped me fix my thinking....

There is a bathtub, that sit pretty low that although is large, there was a time when I could hardly fit in it. When getting out of it required me to get in my knees and pull myself out. That my late husband suggested I not use the tub because between the weight of the water and my weight, might be to much.
So I stopped using it.... 
Now I can fit in the tub,
Now I can just stand up to get out of the tub.
That feels really good..

Current weight- 230 pounds
BMI- 34.0
Current size 14

Looking good

Well I am learning it is not about the numbers but how I look and feel.... and and look and feel GREAT!

Picked up

Current weight-234
Gain

Well the past week or so, I have NOT been eating right. I have eaten pizza, McDonald's and Wendys. I have not been drinking my water.

I have no one to blame for this but me but I will not allow this to set me back.

I still like where I am going....

Some before pics

No weigh check in today.. but I wanted to share some pictures of me with my highest weight of 298. That is me on the right with the brown top.

I am very happy with where I am now.

Side note I was talking to my boyfriend. He told me he was very happy with my weight loss, and really does not want me to lose anymore weight. Said he does not like skinny thin girls ( which I knew). He wants me to just tone up what I do have. Which just means my belly fat... 

Something to think about..... 

Also, looked into joining a weight loss boot camp, cost is good. Just need to find the time. 

Below 230

I got on the scale this morning...and saw the black line dropped below 230!

Hell YES!

228

I should have know, I was able to fit in my 16 year old size 12 curvy pants ( which is size 14)  from Areo.

So happy!

                      CURRENT WEIGHT 228
                       BMI- 33.4
                        8 Pounds from goal weight of 220.  28 pounds from goal weight of 200.

So here are some pictures

I NEVER take pictures but today I decided to snap a picture of myself so I will have stuff to compare to. Here they are..

I have to say I am very very impressed with what I am looking at. I am smaller, I am right now in the process of trying to tone this mess up. I also discovered that I have an herena, so I will have to take care of that. 

CW- 234

BMI-34.6

Goal weight- 200

New apps

So not being able to sleep, I decided I needed to download apps to pick on the exercise part of this weight loss. So I downloaded
1- My fitness pal
2- 30 day abs challage
3- 30 day butt challange
4- 30 squat challange  (for thighs)
5- 30 extreme squat challange
6- A BMI calc

What promoted this was I was at my brother in laws house today, I looked down at my thighs and saw the hanging skin from it. Told myself I need to push harder.
Now my fitness pal will help me know what I am putting in my mouth. Going to start counting my calories now.

Ok water....
In a word I hate drinking it. But I discored I can get lots of fruit infuse my water. ( like I do with lemon) so I will be off to the store to do that.

Clothes....
Today I am going to purge my larger size clothing. Fact is there is a bunch of stuff in there that I cannot and have no plans of ever fitting again.

Today stats
235 pounds
BMI- 34.7

Below 240!! YES

Current weight 238
BMI- 35.1


So I dropped  below the 240 mark. THANK GOD! I had been bouncing between 240-245 for weeks!

So this is what I have done

• Picked up my workout 
• Watched more than ever what I put in my mouth

• Started drinking my water/cucumber/ lemon/ peppermint 

I am super happy my next goal is to lose 20 pounds... 

Body issues

Well today I am having body image issues. As I look at my breast I wish they were firmer. I lay down and they fall to the sides.  ( Yes you just read that). I keep telling myself that as my belly disappears, my tits might appear firmer. Grr!!

Yes it really has ben a while

Well ok I gained all my weight back. My highest weight was 296 pounds. I was depressed, sad  did not walk around, well i could not.

So here I am, I decided that i was tired, so in November 2014 I took an honest look at myself and started losing weight. Not because I was sick, and lost, not because I was depressed and lost. But because I was fat and not healthy. I was 296 pounds...

@ 296 pounds my BMI was 43.7

Today I weigh

240 Pounds!

When people see me they mention they can see the changes in my body. I feel better. My clothes no longer fit. and for the first time in a long time i can see parts of my body I have not seen in a long time.
  My weight loss I am doing in stages of  setting short term goals for myself. My next goal is 220.

Now my BMI is 35.4

This still makes my health risk very high. I still have high blood pressure, and  I still am at the risk of heart attack and stroke.

What am I dealing with

1- Hanging skin. Yes on my thighs, and arms
2- Darker skin on my inner thighs and where my belly hung over This comes from the skin rubbing together for so many years.

I really did not want to start toning my body this early in the process, but in order to get rid of the hanging skin I need to fill it out by building muscle.
 Plan
Squats- to fill the hanging skin on my butt and thighs
Plank- to kill belly fat.

got a long way to go!







May 22, 2015

Weight 240 Pounds
BMI

35 - 39.9

Severely Obese

Very High